He's dying.
I don't want to watch him fade. But he's dying. And if he's dying, so will we.
I'm scared.
I never used to pray. I always thought God would just do something or not, whether I prayed or not.
One day I was sobbing my brains out in an empty church and calling God every name in the book. After a while I fell asleep. Or I tell myself I fell asleep, because I'm scared to have real visions.
God having a plan for you is terrifying.
I don't want to do this to him. I don't want to die.
But if I die, even if it fails, I won't have to watch him die. I won't have to watch either of them die.
If it works ... maybe they won't have to die at all.
I have to try. I'm scared. I'm sorry.
Copr. ©2004 Sara A. Keating. This work will enter the public domain January 1st, 2034.